What the words "be your own idol" by Sophia Amoruso did for me

I've been known to doubt myself and have no clue how to take the first step because of my huge amount of fear. I've also been known as the girl who could tell you any success story that started off on a rough road. I'll ususally tell these stories to people who dreams to be change the world but is struggling to be recognized.I've had so many years of looking up to people like they were on a cloud I could never reach. Whether they were celebrities or regular people doing big things that interested me. Now I have enough of paying so much attention to other people's lives and witnessing so many things happen for them while I'm still the average girl next door. So I've decided no more hoping and wishing. It makes me feel like Julia Roberts running after Micheal in my best friend's wedding. She was running after something that was never going to be hers. It's not a jealous thing but more of a pointless non-benefiting process in my life. And that's not what I want for my future. Focusing on the wrong things in life is such an headache.

But someone who knew what she wanted and was to determined to have it .......

 I will like to start making my own legacy small things at a time. And hopefully I will change someone's life one day. Even with just this blog post. I am inspired by that pretty red head Annie created back in the year I was born in 1992. She was one happy singing little girl that helped other girls get through the day. And that big fluffy dog was awesome too. So much I had to buy one and cuddle with mine too. The first thing I did was enroll in nursing school again and plan on finishing this time. Here I am in my scrubs and best friend, Gigi.

I'm on my way to see the new Annie right now. Yes it is a hardknock life. But can't it be a fun one too? Have a good day French Rebels !

Until next time
-Exo,TELLA

Finding your passion or talent through Desperate times

 You ever had one of those days, weeks, or months when everything seems to be lacking in your life. It left you no choice but to power think of something you could do, something that'll actually work and be worth your time trying. I've had many many moments where I either forgot something, didn't have the sources to actually get something done, or honestly, sometimes I didn't have the money to do it. But I believe that's why we were given a brain and creativity. Some people don't actually have it and I feel awfully bad for them. Life is no fun without creativity. When I have these moments, even if they're not fun, It really helps me realize how much can be done using what you have! Have you ever thought about the fact that most of the time this is how people find their passion or talent after so many years of curiosity and identity crisis. I think that's more of a good thing than a bad thing. I find it applauding when someone can admit they would have never discovered something new about themselves had it been for that one frustrating, desperate moment. 

If you ask me it’s absolutely fabulous when you're forced to work with your brain to help you think of the next idea. It helps you appreciate who you are and what you're capable of A LOT more than any other possible life challenges could do. 

Just do the damn thing with NO fear !

I'd like to hear some of your desperate times and the solution you thought of to fix it. Put it down in the comments below ^_^

-On se parle plus tard
Exo,TELLA